as i wipe my tears of joy.

July 15, 2008 at 3:11 am (Uncategorized)

ok so i just got done shedding a little cry…

carey hall sent me a messege that made me realize how amazing god is and how my life is not my own…

with that being sai.. im 3 days into my journey of a life time… today i went out got lost and found a job all in the span of about 5 hours…. the city is amazing. the lights oh the lights are beautiful…

Micah is being a great save for me… i never stopped and realized that he has been used by god so many times in the same role he has always played…..he is a mean to my end….

The people here are very unpersonal.. but thats ok.. right now i just need to focus on work and getting into my bube rythem….

I ride the subway everyday. and i weigh about 176… ive lost weight yall….

heres some pics

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thew 4th of july that possibly had changed my life forever

July 5, 2008 at 10:29 pm (Uncategorized)

ok so it all starts yesterday morning. the time is 4 oclock over at mikes hadnt slept for a total of 28 hours. but jessica came and picked me up and we were off to huntington. might i add if you saw the sunrise yesterday it was a foreshadow for the day ahead… beutiful and full of life. gods glory in all its power…

got to the beach.. hoty as hell water was ball shrinkin freeze nuts. and i was with my girlfriend and family…

HERE IS WERE I HAD AN EXPERIENSE OF EPIC PROPORTIONS. LITTERALLY OPPOSITE OF EVERY MAUNTRA IVE EVER HAD… (FUCK WOMEN , NEVER GETTING MARRIED, GOING TO PARTY UNTILL DEATH)

I HAD ANOTHER BUBE EPIPHANY..BUT SERIOUSLY IT WAS GOD INVOLVED TOO….

JESSICA HAS SERIOUSLY SUPERCEEDED ALL THE BULLSHIT EXPECTATIONS AND EXPECTATIONS IVE HAD ABOUT OTHER WOMEN AND ESPECIALLY HER. I THOUGH HEY WE WOULD HOOK UP SHED GIVE ME A REASON TO DUMP HER ASS AND I WOULD FEEL IN THE RIGHT AND KEEP ON KEEPIN ON… I WAS MORE WRONG THAN IVE EVER BEEN…. EVER… SHE COOKS SHE CLEANS SHE LOVES ME FOR ME DOSENT EXPECT ME TO CHANGE AND IS THE MOST REAL PUNK IVE EVER MEANT…  AND CHECK THIS IVE STARTED TO CHANGE NOT FOR HER BUT FOR MYSELF… IM ON THE FAST TRACK TO STOP BOOZIN AND USIN DRUGS… IM GOING TO NEW YORK TO FILL IN THE GAPS THAT IVE BEEN RUNNING FROM MY WHOLE LIFE…

LAST BUT NOT LEAST………. I PLAN ON PUTTING A RING ON HER FINGER…. WHY? WHAT THE FUCKL? YOU MIGHT ASK… I CANT EXPLAIN HOW OR WHY, BUT IVE FELT THINGS WITH WOMEN AND THIS IS MORE  SPIRITUAL AND REAL THAN ALL OF THE OTHER ONES…BEFORE I WOULD CONVINCE MYSLF TO LOVE… BUT HERE I DONT EVEN TRY AND IT NATURALLY COMES….. WEIRD HUH….DUDE I CANT BELIEVE IT BUT ITS TRUE…

WHEN I WAS YOUNG I ASKED MY DAD WHY HE DIDNT PLAY PIANO OR MY MOM DIDNT ACT ANYMORE…

THEY SAID ” MY DREAMS CHANGED”  I REALLY DIDNT GET THAT UNTILL LAST NIGHT….MY DREAMS OF PERFORMIMG AND MUSIC ARE STILL HERE BUT I DREAM OF BEING IN THAT LIFE WITH NOT JUST MYSELF ANYMORE… I DREAM OF A WIFE WHO SUPPORTS AND LOVES……

MARK MY WORDS. I PLANE TO MARRY JESSICA MARIE WERNER…….!

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Tough men wear pink

July 2, 2008 at 4:09 am (Uncategorized)

TODAY

  • woke up, got outta bed, ran a comb across my head.

the old lady came and picked me up to go on an unexpected adventure

 

We went to this old guys house.. um i think his name is art. therfore he must be ARTistic haha bubism.

we checked out his house.. he lives in a mobile home park in bfe hemet (you know where even the little black kids sell dope for lunch money).  driving up i wasnt to excited to be there due to the fact of lack of sleep and fucked up dreams but that ios another blog for another time. i digress, drove up and there was this hip ass palm springs hungarian gold old man wearing a tough guys wear pink shirt with cut off sleaves. FIRST BUBED UP MOMENT…

Next we walked in to this unexpected cool hip old man house and started to bullshit.. it started off as any normal bub e convo with an old man does…”Hey dude” an so on… convo leads on about his 20 younger x wife with an 8 year old kid… i dont remember alot but it was bube…

this guy seemed very bube from what i could see. didnt really give to much of a shit and was non chalant about alot.. asked if i wanted a beer and then BINGO! i was off dude talking about bube economy and politics.. the girls at that point aterted fiddling with every old man nic nac in the house and got bored… as you all know i can talk polibubes all day. haha

lets see what  other random bube stuff happened?,,,,  NOt much.. time for dinbube and sleep later..

 

oh yeah! sellin the car tomorrow… ny cant handle this shit 

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